Grey.....Everywhere Grey. Grey. Grey.

When did everything become so grey. All the designers say it is the new hip colour. Out with beige. Grey is in. But it is all so grey. It never used to be grey. It was black or white. You were positive or negative. You had the virus that causes AIDS or you didn't. Now you are grey. I fail to understand why gay omline sites have so many options. "Needs Discussion". What does that mean? What is to discuss? Are you positive? If so don't we all pretty much know what that means? How long could that discussion last? Positive but really healthy. Counts are good. Be that as it may you are still positive. Perhaps the discussion is that you have never been tested and bareback all the time. Well that opens a door for a discussion alright. "When Appropriate". What does that mean? You are positive so bareback with other positive guys but will wear a condom if you are fucking a negative guy? Does it mean you only wear a condom when fucking at a black tie event? When did it even become appropriate to not wear a condom? Well it has. That is what I face everyday. Grey. Grey. Grey. I hate grey. It is nothing. Black and White. That is where the real drama is. Why have we decided to settle for grey? I thought at one time that we could do better.