I Feel Lucky

Do you ever have one of those days that you feel completely lucky? It doesn't matter what really happened. You just feel lucky. It may be simple like a friend telling you how important you are to them. It may be sitting in your new place looking around and knowing it isn't you yet but it is still home and you love it just as it is. It may be facing challenges at work and gracefully overcoming them. It may be a great outfit that everyone tells you how great you look in it. It may be that your thinning hair is style amazingly. It may be your favourite song coming on the radio. It may be the sun on your face. It may be a well made bed. It may be that hot shower. It just may be life. In all its wonderful glory. I had that day.

What?

I've been many thing, worn many different masks, taken life by the short and curlies and have run away screaming. Ultimately I am another person with things to say that mean nothing to most but maybe mean something to some.

I Am Love

Love: something I have struggled with most of my life. What is love? What does it look like to me? I didn't grow up in a very loving environment but is all now irrevelant now that I am in my forties. You can only let your past dicate your life for so long and then you need to reclaim your life and make it what you want it to be regardless of how you started. I was thinking about all love is. Funny, silly, kind, scary, hard, easy, tough, rough (if your lucky), compassionate, and the list goes on and on. And I realized I am all those things. I am love. As are you. So each day I am going to try and be a more loving person. That is the energy I want to send out to the universe. Be Well.....and love more.

Getting Back

ok so I haven't been here much....but plan to be back. After the move and then the bike ride to Montreal I have been something. Regrouping I guess. I missed summer. Those long lazy days at the beach. I didn't make it to the beach once this summer. I am spinning. And it is now fall and all that fall brings with it. It is my favourite season.

Life takes a different direction with fall. New projects get started. I am taking a vegetarian cooking class. I don't plan to totally give up meat but am moving in that direction. My book is finally started, I just need more time to write. But who doesn't need more time. We all have the same 24 hours a day. I need to get back to "To Do" lists. That is the only way to accomplish all that I want to. Life offers us so much. It is like a huge buffett. I want it all. I just need to figure out how to have it all. Perhaps I am being greedy given I have so much.

But wanting to experience more of life is what it should be about anyway.

Believe

I have been struggling with whether or not I wanted to continue with this blog. I feel like I have nothing left to say and so much to say at the same time. I have a new tattoo....it is BELIEVE. My new favourite word. A lot has happened this summer and on the last long weekend another season comes to a close and another season will soon begin. A harvest moon brings with it new beginnings and once again I look forward to those new beginnings. Because I believe. Believe in what? I don't know. I just believe. I decided yesterday that I would rather believe and be wrong then not to beleive and wrong.