Changing Again

Another chapter in my life is coming to a close. I moved into the Sears Merchandise building after I sold my house because I needed a safe place to fall apart and rebuild. I keep saying that the last couple of years of my life has been chaos. Most people who know me keep saying how much I have changed but don't quite understand that my life was chaos. From the outside looking in it appeared that I had it all going on. But believe me from the inside looking out it was a mess.

I took the time I needed. I deconstructed. I brought chaos into other people's lifes. Other people brought their chaos into my life. I have learned so much about myself and who I am. I am at the point that I love the experience. Even more now that it is done.

So I have finally found a new place to live. It only took eight months and me changing my mind one thousand six hundred and forty-eight times. My real estate agent, Roy Runions (yes this is a plug for him, again, I can't stress enough people if you need an agent, call Roy), has been so patient with me. I am going to love living in my new place. It really is me. My decision making in life is all based on my emotions. So I needed to find a place that felt like home when I walked in the door. And I found it. Life does always give me what I need.

The selling agent said to me when he brought back their counter offer that it was my lucky day. I just smiled and said everyday of my life is lucky. Not perfect, ever, which would be dull anyway, but always lucky. I know there is a greater force operating. I don't know what it looks like or what is going on, but I don't need to know. I just need to follow it and know that everything will be ok.