Drifting Away

I have been watching myself (yes I am a big observer) slowly drift away from the gay community over the last couple of years. I completly left it a few years ago and that wasn't the answer so I sort of jumped back into it. But over the last year I am drifting further and further away...while living in the middle of it. I never really found a home within the gay community. Like anything it has it strengths and weaknesses. I have witnessed both. But as I change and my needs change and the gay community changes it no longer seems to play a role in my life. Like all experiences we need to go through them. To appreciate them. To identify what works and what doesn't work for yourself. My world is becoming bigger. My experiences richer. Perhaps I have dealt with or at least understand most of my issues. And I witness too many gay men my age still acting out a lot of issues. Something I don't need to be around. Perhaps one day I will find myself drifting back. Perhaps not. I have moved on to getting on with my life and being gay is actually quite a small part of it.

Wild As The Wind

There is nothing I love more than a winter storm. Mother Nature blows in and takes control. Suddenly everyone's world shifts. It is funny to watch people. Some people just roll with the event and enjoy it. I am one of those people. Some people fight it every step of the way. You know the ones. Driving too fast to get to work because the weather is making them late. Odds are they end up in an accident continuing to curse the day and their bad luck. Yesterday was fantastic. Yes I do realize that I have the luxury of walking to work. But if I had to drive I would have called in and taken a personal day. We did close early...I got to go home and finish a novel I was reading while the snow swirled outside my window. I also bought on dvd the series "Damage" with Glenn Close and curled up on the couch and watched the first four episodes. It was a snowday....there is nothing else to do but embrace it...with both arms and hold on tight. Tomorrow it will be gone so why miss out on it?