I Was Broken

Hi Grandma....well I am back. Yeah me. I sit here staring at a blank screen. I am not sure I have anything left to say about me anymore. In fact it is safe to say I have never been more tired of me. I love me. What is wrong with the world? I mean really if you were still here to see what was going on you would shake your head. What do you mean you're still here. Hog wash. If I admitted to anyone that I hear your voice they would think that I was crazy so we must keep it our little secret. So from now on I am only going to communicate to you through my blog. OK. Agreed. Fantastic. Funny I have nothing to say. If you really came back from heaven and were sitting across from me I would say nothing. I would want to just sit with you. Enjoy the physical, emotional, spiritual connection that I know as love in your presence. You are probably wondering why I am reaching out for you now. Now when I have been never stronger or more sure of myself. I have finally realized that through all those dark days, especially these last few years, when I have felt broken, you were holding me up. Well I don't need you to hold me up. I need you to help me help the world. So together some how we will figure it out. We only need to touch one person at a time. Today is the first step. My dear, sweet, wonderful friend Marco asked me on Friday when I was going to write again. So I am writing again. I just didn't want to write when I was broken. The story of my life will not be about pain. It will be about beauty. It will be about joy. It will be about love. I want to light up a room the way you always did. You kept your pain to yourself and gave your heart to the world. Thank you for that. Thank you for the role you played in me becoming me. It has been hard for me.....but tonight I just wanted to say that I love because you are you. So we have some challenges ahead of us. Talk to you soon......love from your little Jimmy.