Questions??

Are Britney and I cosmically connected?
Have I been that fucked?
Am I that interesting?

It was the second week of September, 2006. A week before I went to Paris. I had been dating Clayton for about six weeks. I had been partying a lot. Not as much as I had in the past, but a lot more than I had in a while.

Tuesday
I went to get my haircut and wanted something a little different for Europe. I left with a mohawk. I liked it. Yes it was out there, but all in all, it was just a haircut.

Wednesday
Everyone weighed in with an opinion. Every single person I ran into. At work. At the gym. Friends and acquaintenances on the street. All of their opinions unwanted and unsolicited. Clayton hated it. My boss who hardly ever stops in my office came by to tell me that although our office was casual it was still conservative. I guess he was concerned that my current hairstyle would negatively impact my work. A board meeting was taking place that day and a trustee came into my office (which NEVER happens) to talk about her new haircut and while she would like to try something radical it wouldn't be appropriate given she was a board member. I think she was trying to tell me something but I just didn't have the energy to give a fuck.

Thursday
Clayton dumped me by voice mail. I guess it is better than a post-it.

Friday
Went to fly. Clayton was there and said he didn't want to lose me. Ended up going back to his place. At five in the morning we were still up and still high. Clayton asked if he could shave my head because he hated the mohawk so much. I let him.

Saturday
I left Clayton's saturday morning with my shaved head, completely sketchy, and more lost than I had ever been in my life, wondering if I needed to check myself into rehab.

I look back on that week today and it doesn't look that different than the week Britney has had. So perhaps the answer is yes, we are cosmically connected. And yes, there has been times in my life that I have been that fucked. And although I don't think it is very interesting the rest of the world does. So maybe I am not that fucked after all. It is just that everyone else is.