Smoking

OK...I am glad to find out people are reading my blog. I have had a few people comment to me that I have not been updating it. Well, there is the new job, the guy I was dating, the holiday season and I have finally started writing my book I keep talking about. And I am smoking again. There it is out there. I am tired of lying about, hiding it, and dismissing it with an "only when I am drinking". I do hate it. I just came to realize tonight the only way I will be happy is to actually quite. Since I beat myself up everytime I have one. It's not like I am sitting there sucking on this thing thinking "love it". I used too. I guess that is what I remember is that I used to like. I guess it was fun in the summer when I was partying more. Or was it? It really is a nasty habit. It does sink...I have been in people's home recently that smoke all the time and it is disgusting. The taste in your mouth....yuck...yellow teeth and fingers....yuck.....I keep running over and over in my head...I'm going to quite.....I'm going to quite...I know I will cut down....and I don't.

So what I need is a plan....write it out and follow it and stick to it. I think I want to do a reduction strategy to start. I just don't think I can do it. I believe that I can quite, but I need a plan that will work for me. Right now I believe the reduction strategy will work. So starting tomorrow I can only have 3 cigarettes a day.

Wish me luck...I will keep you posted.