The Journey

"The trick is to keep moving forward, let go of the fear and regret that slow us down and keep us from enjoying a journey that is over too soon" Season Finale, Season 2, Desperate Housewives

Anyone that knows me will say that I have become very intropsective over the last couple of years. One friend said to me "It's ok, it is just different". It is true it has been different. I have been declaring all summer that this is the year I let it all go. And I have been. And I seem to recieve messages everyday in the most unexpected ways. Sunday morning, while finishing up watching season 2 of Desperate Housewives, the above quote was the closing comments.

It made me stop, rewind, and write the quote down. How much I have lived my life with both fear and regret and how it has slowed me down. Which is why I had to start letting it all go. And the funny thing about letting it all go is how many layers there are too it. Just keep peeling them away to find another layer. And then you slowing watch everything coming back, but differently. Sometimes I just have to laugh out loud at all the chances I am willing to take, yes sometimes there is a little nagle of fear tugging at the corner of my mind, but a deep breath and soldier on. We are all so different, having different childhoods, in different parts of the world, with different living conditions. However that thread of fear and regret runs through us all. Not everything I will do will work out. I have learned that. I have laughed and cried a thousand tears this year. I never cried before for either happy events or sad events. But doing nothing and feeling nothing results in nothing. My life isn't necessarily happy , but it is getting better. And that is something to get excited about.

On a less introspect note I recently bought James Collins new CD titled The Messenger. I know James from the gym and always chat with him there as he has this amazing energy that draws you to him. It is an interesting CD, I recommend picking it up. In a world of pop music that feels like fluff it is a treat to listen to something with depth to it. My favourite track is probably "Fly". I am a sucker for a ballad. Check out his website at www.jamescollins.com

Happy Monday